Because of you ; again.
You + Me = Never
Hehe. Just something random. Meow.
Yeap results came back.
Time to face the music.
Meow.
Put a brave front in front of everyone else.
I was literally forcing myself to smile today.
And when no one was looking; I teared.
I'm me.
Kinda getting used to being alone now.
Not sharing with anyone.
Its better this way.
People dont have to worry about me.
But still its so difficult.
It's torturing.
I really need hugs now.
I yearn for them so badly.
Because of you ; again.
Finally got a taste of senior high life after getting back my CTs results.
Its like getting numb to all the failing and bad grades.
Placing a mask to hide my true feelings of me feeling like the dumbest person on earth.
Though I know really well how much effort went into them.
I deserve these results and I can say life's quite fair at times.
So I've learnt the hard way and I'm trying my best to mug hard this time.
But its so hard with all the temptations around.
Really wish someone could save me now and be my study mate.
On another note I'm having fun in school at times GLing retarded ppl around me in my life.^^
hehe. I must admit I really love life at times. Its a love-hate relationship.
Anw, I really miss talking to someone. So damn much. But not like you know/care.
Just walk pass me and my life.
And I'll just place a mask and hide like a chicken again.
The more I want something, the more I avoid them.
Thats one thing I figured out about myself.