Sunday, March 16, 2008♥
Because of you ; again.
Stopped suddenly while trying to do homework. Then felt super fucked up.
Whats the meaning to life anyway huh? To chiong homework and be a no lifer?
I just dont understand it. Why bother saying its holiday when you ppl throw tons of hw at us?
Its pure crap i tell you. ALL my maths hw are untouched. You know why? Cuz i know im gonna fail maths. I dont understand a shit about it luh. i look at the paper then *slam the ws down and mutter some vulgar word* im screwed. I know that.
The worst thing is right. You ppl out there say u all haven done hw too. And you know wad happens the next day? Wow. ALL the ws done. yeah right. haven done hw. Kao pei sia. damn the homework. =/ and damn myself for being so brainless that i cant even finish that shit. I have no mood to do hw. And i dont wanna do. And i dont know how to do. nice right. im damn screwed for maths. And soon I know my parents gonna nag and nag again. cuz i know i aint gonna slp early tonight. *dies*
Toodles.
Thursday, March 13, 2008♥
Because of you ; again.
I suddenly felt something different today. I dunno what. But I knew something was different.
I reflected on what I had done so far in my life. I suddenly realised things that I didnt knew.
I suddenly realised that I used to keep on harping about me not treasuring my primary school life. Then I found out that I'm not treasuring what I have now.
Family
I suddenly realised that all the long although I keep complaining about my parents and my family..I actually know it in my heart that although they seldom make me happy nowadays, although they nag alot and are quite unreasonable at times, they actually sacrificed many things and did alot for me. I found out that I myself is unreasonable. =/
I keep throwing unnecessary tantrums that made u all upset. Although when I know that I would hurt u all at times when I'm like that, I still continued being unreasonable. I comforted myself when I'm upset with how evil I am by thinking of all the negative part of u all; the negative things u did or said to me, pushing every positive side of u people and what you all had done and sacrificed for me to the very end of my mind. Every night I would always stay up late, most of the time making you wait just stoning while sitting on the sofa making sure that I would sleep earlier, and yet I still can bear to let either one of you sacrifice your sleep for me when I'm chatting to my friends at times and not doing my homework.
Although everytime I would complain how much I hated what you had chosen or forced me to do like coming to DHS, joining air rifle or learning piano, I actually like them at times. But being me, I would just not admit it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I seldom appreciated what you all had done for me. Sometimes I would complain about having a brother like mine, but actually sometimes, I cant imagine what my life would be like without a brother like you. I used to keep complaining about how irritating you were to me..but actually..if not for you entertaining me, my life would be boring. Although I dont say it, I dont and would forget what you had done for me. Although you aint there for me when I cry, you didnt mind when I needed your help for my homework when I woke you at 1am and asked you to help me when I went to sleep; even when you needed to wake up at 7am the next day. Thank you. Since young everytime when you hugged me..I would push you away..even when I really wanted and needed that hug. I'm sorry. I dont know why..but maybe I just got used to pushing you away everytime. =x
Although there's only a small chance that you all would see this, but I just wanna say sorry and a thank you for everything that you had done for me.<3
Friends
Thank you to each and everyone of you for everything. Really..some of you people are just super duper awesome that words alone cant describe. For some..although sometimes I would think of the negative stuff about you..I am actually really glad that I know you. For those who are always here for me..when I'm at the bottom of my world to pick me up, I really really appreaciate what you all had done. Although I would seldom admit and say thank you to you people I am actually really grateful. Esspecially those people who would have to bear me throwing my tantrums every week, thank you. Sorry that sometimes I would even throw tantrums at you people..with all the valgur words and stuff..really sorry. And I'm really touched at the fact that despite I do that every week, u people would just forgive me and would even comfort me. Thank you.<3
See..I really felt different today. But its the truth..although at times I say that I hate some people and wouldnt care anymore..they are just words that I would say when I'm pissed off and throwing tantrums. By the next day I would usually feel sorry and forget all about it. >.< Here is a list of people that I would really like to say a very big thank you and sorry to:
- Daddy -Sofina -Iris Lim -Crystabelle -Shu qi
- Mummy -Samantha -Tricia -Ching Yee -Janet
- Brother -Fabian -Deon -Shi Xun -Victoria
- Celeste -Sitong -Gerald -Jared -Natasha
- Laura -Clarabel -Adalric -Clarence -Leon
- Ting wei -Cally -Tiara -Richmond -Shu jun
- Sabrina -Jessie -Kai yun -Zi Yang -Roohi
- Chantalle -Vivian -Grace -Jacob -Nicholas
- Jing Mei -Cky -Sook Wei -Yong Ming -Tabitha
etc..
[not in any rank or order]
Lols. =/ btw. i like my new blogskin.(: hahaha. random. >.<
I reflected on what I had done so far in my life. I suddenly realised things that I didnt knew.
I suddenly realised that I used to keep on harping about me not treasuring my primary school life. Then I found out that I'm not treasuring what I have now.
Family
I suddenly realised that all the long although I keep complaining about my parents and my family..I actually know it in my heart that although they seldom make me happy nowadays, although they nag alot and are quite unreasonable at times, they actually sacrificed many things and did alot for me. I found out that I myself is unreasonable. =/
I keep throwing unnecessary tantrums that made u all upset. Although when I know that I would hurt u all at times when I'm like that, I still continued being unreasonable. I comforted myself when I'm upset with how evil I am by thinking of all the negative part of u all; the negative things u did or said to me, pushing every positive side of u people and what you all had done and sacrificed for me to the very end of my mind. Every night I would always stay up late, most of the time making you wait just stoning while sitting on the sofa making sure that I would sleep earlier, and yet I still can bear to let either one of you sacrifice your sleep for me when I'm chatting to my friends at times and not doing my homework.
Although everytime I would complain how much I hated what you had chosen or forced me to do like coming to DHS, joining air rifle or learning piano, I actually like them at times. But being me, I would just not admit it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I seldom appreciated what you all had done for me. Sometimes I would complain about having a brother like mine, but actually sometimes, I cant imagine what my life would be like without a brother like you. I used to keep complaining about how irritating you were to me..but actually..if not for you entertaining me, my life would be boring. Although I dont say it, I dont and would forget what you had done for me. Although you aint there for me when I cry, you didnt mind when I needed your help for my homework when I woke you at 1am and asked you to help me when I went to sleep; even when you needed to wake up at 7am the next day. Thank you. Since young everytime when you hugged me..I would push you away..even when I really wanted and needed that hug. I'm sorry. I dont know why..but maybe I just got used to pushing you away everytime. =x
Although there's only a small chance that you all would see this, but I just wanna say sorry and a thank you for everything that you had done for me.<3
Friends
Thank you to each and everyone of you for everything. Really..some of you people are just super duper awesome that words alone cant describe. For some..although sometimes I would think of the negative stuff about you..I am actually really glad that I know you. For those who are always here for me..when I'm at the bottom of my world to pick me up, I really really appreaciate what you all had done. Although I would seldom admit and say thank you to you people I am actually really grateful. Esspecially those people who would have to bear me throwing my tantrums every week, thank you. Sorry that sometimes I would even throw tantrums at you people..with all the valgur words and stuff..really sorry. And I'm really touched at the fact that despite I do that every week, u people would just forgive me and would even comfort me. Thank you.<3
See..I really felt different today. But its the truth..although at times I say that I hate some people and wouldnt care anymore..they are just words that I would say when I'm pissed off and throwing tantrums. By the next day I would usually feel sorry and forget all about it. >.< Here is a list of people that I would really like to say a very big thank you and sorry to:
- Daddy -Sofina -Iris Lim -Crystabelle -Shu qi
- Mummy -Samantha -Tricia -Ching Yee -Janet
- Brother -Fabian -Deon -Shi Xun -Victoria
- Celeste -Sitong -Gerald -Jared -Natasha
- Laura -Clarabel -Adalric -Clarence -Leon
- Ting wei -Cally -Tiara -Richmond -Shu jun
- Sabrina -Jessie -Kai yun -Zi Yang -Roohi
- Chantalle -Vivian -Grace -Jacob -Nicholas
- Jing Mei -Cky -Sook Wei -Yong Ming -Tabitha
etc..
[not in any rank or order]
Lols. =/ btw. i like my new blogskin.(: hahaha. random. >.<
Oh yeah. I remembered about the class com training. I really had fun talking to Laura, Jing mei and adalric. LOLS. i dont really like the stories though. >.<
And this holiday is really really busy for everyone. Why is it even called a holiday btw? hahaha. Should be activity week or something right. hahaha. bb(:
Monday, March 03, 2008♥
Because of you ; again.
Hahaha. Hello ppl.(:
zomg. my bloggy keeps dying. whatever. hahaha.
Iris here shall force her tired fingers to revive the blog.(:
I shall make this a happy happy post.
hahahaha. yay.
Today. [3th march 2008]
Had mock 2.4 today. Damn tired luh.
blehhs. Many many sincere thanks to those ppl who cheered me on while i was jogging.
thank you. u guys rock(:
A really special thank you to my dear fren celeste whom i supposed to pace with. She ended up jogging slower for me to let me catch up with her! Really really thank you dear!(:
Assembly was a pure torture luh. I didnt even understand what crap the guy was even saying. I bet dunno how many ppl didnt even listen too. Gahh. Useless and waste time niah. hahaha.
But one thing was awesome during the end of the assembly! Lectra won 2nd for explore! Whoooh. aiseh. Lectra 就是 Lectra. Hahaha. Actually some of us kinda expected it le luh. Cause many of the ppl in Lectra really did put in effort in Explore and worked as a team.(: Yay. Jia you Lectra!(:
Erm..afew days back went out with samantha babe(:
Was really really fun luh! Gahhh. And she's uber uber cute!<33
But right. I feel kinda bad leh. Cause i keep asking her buy this and buy that with me. =/
sorry babe! gahhhh. >.<
And really thank you for following me into bugis street luh. Even when ur leg hurts. Thank you babe!(:
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