Wednesday, June 01, 2011♥
Because of you ; again.
Imma sad little girl.
Feeling really sad and lost now.
I have no idea what to do.
No motivation whatsoever.
I've lost my direction in life. Or no. Its just that I suddenly realised I didnt have one to begin with. No where to go to. No goals. No aims.
I've just been living my life rotting everyday. Going with the flow. Trying to please everyone that I eventually forgot about myself.
Now that I realised that this is MY life. Its too late. I've let people take control of it. I have to restart everything. And most of all, I have wasted 17 years of my life.
There's no one who will truly understand.
No one who is interested.
No one who actually bothers at all.
There is no one, absolutely no one to talk to.
And my heart is breaking.
Have I lived all these years for nothing?
I didnt achieve anything great.
And I foresee if i continue living like this.
I wont achieve anything at all.
I'm beginning to fear life.
I'm a coward.
I dont wanna take what life gives to me.
Why should I?
When I know there would be a time that I am sure to be hurt and sad in the future.
Why should I look forward to that?
I wonder.
God please do help me find the right path.