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Thursday, March 13, 2008♥

Because of you ; again.

I suddenly felt something different today. I dunno what. But I knew something was different.
I reflected on what I had done so far in my life. I suddenly realised things that I didnt knew.
I suddenly realised that I used to keep on harping about me not treasuring my primary school life. Then I found out that I'm not treasuring what I have now.

Family
I suddenly realised that all the long although I keep complaining about my parents and my family..I actually know it in my heart that although they seldom make me happy nowadays, although they nag alot and are quite unreasonable at times, they actually sacrificed many things and did alot for me. I found out that I myself is unreasonable. =/
I keep throwing unnecessary tantrums that made u all upset. Although when I know that I would hurt u all at times when I'm like that, I still continued being unreasonable. I comforted myself when I'm upset with how evil I am by thinking of all the negative part of u all; the negative things u did or said to me, pushing every positive side of u people and what you all had done and sacrificed for me to the very end of my mind. Every night I would always stay up late, most of the time making you wait just stoning while sitting on the sofa making sure that I would sleep earlier, and yet I still can bear to let either one of you sacrifice your sleep for me when I'm chatting to my friends at times and not doing my homework.
Although everytime I would complain how much I hated what you had chosen or forced me to do like coming to DHS, joining air rifle or learning piano, I actually like them at times. But being me, I would just not admit it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I seldom appreciated what you all had done for me. Sometimes I would complain about having a brother like mine, but actually sometimes, I cant imagine what my life would be like without a brother like you. I used to keep complaining about how irritating you were to me..but actually..if not for you entertaining me, my life would be boring. Although I dont say it, I dont and would forget what you had done for me. Although you aint there for me when I cry, you didnt mind when I needed your help for my homework when I woke you at 1am and asked you to help me when I went to sleep; even when you needed to wake up at 7am the next day. Thank you. Since young everytime when you hugged me..I would push you away..even when I really wanted and needed that hug. I'm sorry. I dont know why..but maybe I just got used to pushing you away everytime. =x
Although there's only a small chance that you all would see this, but I just wanna say sorry and a thank you for everything that you had done for me.<3

Friends
Thank you to each and everyone of you for everything. Really..some of you people are just super duper awesome that words alone cant describe. For some..although sometimes I would think of the negative stuff about you..I am actually really glad that I know you. For those who are always here for me..when I'm at the bottom of my world to pick me up, I really really appreaciate what you all had done. Although I would seldom admit and say thank you to you people I am actually really grateful. Esspecially those people who would have to bear me throwing my tantrums every week, thank you. Sorry that sometimes I would even throw tantrums at you people..with all the valgur words and stuff..really sorry. And I'm really touched at the fact that despite I do that every week, u people would just forgive me and would even comfort me. Thank you.<3

See..I really felt different today. But its the truth..although at times I say that I hate some people and wouldnt care anymore..they are just words that I would say when I'm pissed off and throwing tantrums. By the next day I would usually feel sorry and forget all about it. >.< Here is a list of people that I would really like to say a very big thank you and sorry to:
- Daddy -Sofina -Iris Lim -Crystabelle -Shu qi
- Mummy -Samantha -Tricia -Ching Yee -Janet
- Brother -Fabian -Deon -Shi Xun -Victoria
- Celeste -Sitong -Gerald -Jared -Natasha
- Laura -Clarabel -Adalric -Clarence -Leon
- Ting wei -Cally -Tiara -Richmond -Shu jun
- Sabrina -Jessie -Kai yun -Zi Yang -Roohi
- Chantalle -Vivian -Grace -Jacob -Nicholas
- Jing Mei -Cky -Sook Wei -Yong Ming -Tabitha
etc..
[not in any rank or order]

Lols. =/ btw. i like my new blogskin.(: hahaha. random. >.<

Oh yeah. I remembered about the class com training. I really had fun talking to Laura, Jing mei and adalric. LOLS. i dont really like the stories though. >.<

And this holiday is really really busy for everyone. Why is it even called a holiday btw? hahaha. Should be activity week or something right. hahaha. bb(: