Its like my world's empty.
Its like I'm invisible.
When people you see simply walk pass you like you're nothing. People who are friends or not.
When people who seemed so familiar in your memory and yet seem like total strangers when they see you.
Its like everything only existed in your memory. Their's, nothing at all.
It feels like im nothing. Nothing to nobody; to anybody; to everybody.

When people who once said they would be there when you're sad suddenly ate all their words back.
When you see people appear on the computer screen in front of you, who are just one click away, people whom once you could say anything to, suddenly seem unclickable; seem so far away.
Its like seeing the people who you thought you could share your whole life-worth of sorrow and joy suddenly forgot all about you.
Its like seeing all your friends who are so familiar, simply change into strangers with known names.
Names whom you once put your hope and trust on. Now, you dont even dare to talk to anyone of them.

Its like stabbing your own heart times and times again seeing the people you love get hurt and yet there's nothing you can do about it; when sometimes you feel that you are even the cause of it.
Its like seeing the person who you look up to; the person whom you thought were so strong; the person you call mum, go crashing down in front of you; crying. And it was all because you were born.
When you face anything more than this, you lose your confidence. The confidence to even look into people's eyes as they walk pass you. The confidence to speak to your friends. The confidence to have fun with the people around you. Cause you're afraid; scared; terrified, that after you feel happy, you would feel this devastating feeling over and over again.

It hurts. Badly. But no one's here to save me.